Hey, who took my paci?!?

Well, we are in the midst of taking away Nikolai's pacifier.  It is tough.  More than tough.  It is sometimes torture. 

You see, Nikolai has used his pacifier since birth to comfort him when he is sad, upset, distressed, frustrated, sick or unhappy.  But now, now Nikolai must learn how to live without this form of comfort.  He must learn that when her is upset, that he must find something else to make him feel better.  I know that it is tough for him (and us) right now, but in the long run the absence of a pacifier will be much better for us all.

The funny thing is, my pacifier has been taken away as well.  For years I have used food when I needed comforting.  I have used food to take away the negativity from a bad day.  I have used food to dull the pain of heartache.  Unlike, Nikolai, however, there is nobody to take away the bad food.  I have to take it away from myself.   Like Nikolai, in the long run the absence of bad food will be much better for us all.

I would say I was 60% on my eating this week.  Much better than last, but still could use some improvement.  I did find myself eating when I wasn't hungry - like when I was nervous about my job interview.  I also found myself eating just because of tradition (it was the state fair people, I think it was valid ;)).  Finally, I found myself drinking - something I haven't done in over a month - because I felt like I deserved a good night out. 

Taking away a source of comfort is a tricky and difficult thing to do.  I know I CAN do it and I know it is beneficial to me and my family.  So this week - let's aim for 70% on the eating :)

Maybe Nik and I can get rid of our pacis together.