Thursday, August 5, 2010

Failure.

That is a word I think of quite often these days.  My whole purpose since graduating high school was be educated and successful.  I worked hard, incurred a lot of debt and in the end became, well, not the definition of a successful lawyer.  No job.  No nice house.  No money.  Nothing.

Yesterday was a particularly hard day for me.  Without getting too far into a different story, let's just say my unemployment is not going to be of much help anymore.  So, as I sat on my bed crying out of frustration and trying to figure out what to do, I could not fathom how life had gotten to this point.  I worked so hard to never be here, yet, here I am.  I just put my head down and started to give up.

Then, as I looked towards the ground I heard a noise.  It was Nikolai, coming towards me laughing and smiling.  As I picked him up to give him a kiss, it dawned on me.  I have two great kids.  One who is incredibly smart, a talented athlete, has incredibly good manners and is a good person.  A second who has hit physical milestones like they are nothing, loves to laugh, calls his grandma's dog "kitty" and wants nothing more than to be with his family.  I may not be the text book definition of a successful lawyer.  I may not have a nice house or a ton of money in the bank.  But, when it comes to being a mom, I have definitely succeeded.

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Nicci said...

Hon - you are a WONDERFUL mom! Watching you with your kids and your nephew, I didn't see a failure, no way! You have great kids, and that's evidence of great parenting, it truly is. You are living a very rich life right now, one that many people would be jealous of. You may not have many possessions, but you have a wonderful family! And THAT'S what's important :)

KLZ said...

Success is such a subjective word isn't it? Your kids and your family are so beautiful - as are you. You're doing fantastic.

Valerie said...

I often feel this way too, but when you look at your kids, and see how happy they are, it really helps you realize that being a mom and raising good kids is all you need to be successful!! Life is definitely harder when you don't have money, etc, but as long as you minimize how much that affects your kids, you're doing a great job :)

Eliza said...

Sounds like success to me!

Cannonball14 said...

And in the end, that's the best thing to be great at! Although the world could use a few more fair and just lawyers, which is the kind you would make.